Emotionally Unavailable Lover

He’s emotionally unavailable but I’m in love with him & he doesn’t know.

Don’t you know I understand what makes you feel less of a man? I get why you fuck and leave. I know why you go distant and then come running back, showering me with love. I hate it, but I love you and I can’t seem to stop. It hasn’t even been a month since we ended things but it feels like years. I want to talk to you, tell you I love you, tell you I care. But I can’t, I know it’ll make you run further away. Commitment terrifies you. Emotions petrify you. Love freezes you like a deer in headlights. Remember, I understand what makes you feel less of a man. Frankly, I don’t mind the things that make you unavailable, it makes me want you more. I love you but I hate that you won’t let me.

Let me love you.

You were a good idea in the beginning

..but you became problematic.

I won’t have you. I can’t have you for my own good. You avoid emotional intimacy. You fear commitment. You can’t fathom positive feelings. You excluded me and lied. And still, a life with you is better than a life without you at all.